More pain

I struggle with a lot of unidentified pain Constantly questioning myself negatively Pain of feeling left out or left behind Lots and lots of pain How do I fix what I don’t know is broken Advertisements

in love

young and in love this is the feeling that people chase I am so grateful I get to have this and I want it my whole life

pillow talk

I want to find my ice cream again with you I want to catch you looking at me like you used to I want to lay on the floor and look into your eyes I want to hold your hands to my face and kiss your fingertips most of all I want to be the…

fragile 

I am a twig. If you step on me I will break and you’ll hear a snap. You may cringe, but you won’t stop walking. You won’t even look back. You’ll expect me to be okay, and bury your guilt behind your insecurities. All the while I am still broken, still snapped. The sound plays…

july 12

I want to be able to call you mine I want to kiss your cheeks and under your eyes  I want to tuck your hair behind your ears  I want to be able to kiss you when you cry  I want to love you more than before  and call you my wife I want the rest…

You called.

‪You’ve always known how to be supportive for everyone except for me. Then, and still now. ‬This time I didn’t ask you to support me and care for me. I just needed you to listen.

prevention doesn’t equal protection

I am a fortress When someone tries to get in, or tear me down I build a thicker wall, I add more bricks and cement All these years and all I’ve done is trap myself

hate hate hate hate hate

hate is a dangerous emotion it sets my veins on fire and engulfs my skin it’s occupies my mind and dissipates my brain it is what gives me a sore neck or a headache it cannot be satisfied and should never be fed hate is the white-hot fire that can not be put out only…

my depression

This tub I sit in full of water is a representation of my sorrows I have tried all the ways you would think to expel them to drink, to smoke, to cut, to curse and yell and forget none have helped or worked so this is what I do now I sit in my sorrows,…

alone

go take a drive at night and when you hit 60, roll down your windows and stick your arm out that feeling, is what it feels like to be alive and to be alone

sometimes

I don’t want to spend my life alone, and aching. I want to move people and empower them. I want to be magnificent, because being great just isn’t enough.